Kitty's Rant Thread

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

~Kitty's journal..since she cant keep a written one cuz she has a noesy ass family V.V~


I need to rant so yeahh may not seem like a rant bu it is to meh D:<…e-e
Things have been going south, and I want out seriously, schools ok, its been better but its not the best. I wish it would go back to like when we were in grade 9, everything was good, no drama…maybe the one with this creeper but other than that everything was perfect. But now fuckin grade 10 comes along and WAM D:< a slap in the face from reality e-e its just been a rollercoaster all year, I finally got out of my relationsip with this Mexican guy, which felt good to be freed from him; the only good thing about school this year was getting closer to Tobi, Konan, Yin and Sai…and Nii-chan :/
My parents serisouly either need to go to marriage councel or separate cuz seriously, its getting harder and harder to contol my anger and what I say V.V my moms so god damn nosey and annoying if I wanted to tell her something I’ll tell her I HATE it when she gets fuckin pissed cuz im in an off mood then she fuckin goes how I have a bad attitude problem because im just in a blah mood? I mean what the fucks their problem they get fuckin mad at me when im mad and I don’t wanna talk about it if I fuckin wanted them to know then I’d tell them but nooo so when their all pissed off and affecting my brother and I its alright apparently, cuz we cant get mad at them cuz were just children fuck that <.<
-sighs- well I just paued to talk to my yin and im calm now o-o;
Tobi, Konan Yin and I wanna move out together when we turn 18..I dought we would be able to though…I really wish we could bu I dought it…Theres too much pressure…
Yin is like my sister, her pain is my pain and mines is hers; everytim something bad happens to me she gets pissed at whoever got me upset or whatever and same goes for me. Her parents want her to get a fuckin 90%average…they don’t know how hard that is to get expecually in our school…our schools standers are MUCH higher than other highschools in peel..and as a regional art student we HAVE to keep our average above a 60 or so or we get sent back to our home school… I don’t wanna go to my homeshcool…unlessi want to end my life or get prego then sure I’ll go..bu I don’t want that….Then theres some other shit with my parents… not just their fighting other things…
and god im just waiting for the day when im raped or killed D:< I think one or the others gonna happen :/ or a car crash e-e the person I car pool with is like WOOSH and we almost got hit quite a few times, im not strong and im oblivious to the max…I mean for god sake at AN tobi went to the bathroom so I waited for her outside, apparently she was on the opposite side of the line wearing a bright pink wig with a bright yellow trench coat waving at me and apparently I was looking right at her and I didn’t see her; if that’s not oblivious then idk what is… soooo either way im just waiting for something to happen V.V
really right now…Im numb I canat be broken down anymore; its just numbness the only thing that makes me smile is being with Tobi,Konan and Yin and talking to ppl online other than that im really trapped in my head ive realized that and I don’t know how to get out V.V

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

Junes not suppose to be cold <.< Last yea this time we were going inside to stay cool; to stay where the AC is bu now were going inside to keep warm D:< that’s not right e-e Exams are almost over..I got two more to do and serisoudly there gonna be one hell of a joke from what ive heard it’ll be easy; I know all the material so I realy don’t needa study I haven’t studied at all this semester e-e Last time I checked my average was like an 80.05% or so, I really hope it didn’t drop, I think civics might have broght it back down bu idk I guess ill find out on the 26th :/ It better be awesomely sunny then, last day of school and were all gonna be doing random stupid stuff before we don’t see each other for two months, which I will miss the randomness. The realization that im going into my second last year of high school kicked in a few weeks ago and idk what I feel, still numb yes but lost at the same time; I know im gonna spend a good amount of time looking at collages next year and no dought work for an arts scholarship…If I have to I’ll go to a boarding school…I don’t wanna be here no more I don’t need drama at home too and frankly its pissing me off to the max <.< I cant smile at home; rarely yes but hardly >.<;;; I don’t wanna talk to my mom, she dosent understand me if I tell her something god she makes the biggest deal out of it its fuckin annoying <.< my dad, fuck I don’t even talk to him; far as im concerned I don’t have a father. I don’t consider my brother to be my brother I avoid him as much as possible in the house cuz I know that he’ll say something retarded to piss me off, hes really the only person that can piss me off in a second <.< Fuckin parents don’t make him shut the fuck up they fuckin know that he pisses me off but do nothing to make him learn to shut his fuckin mouth <.< I wanna cry but I cant…Being trapped in a small ass town house with my friends living like 2hours away from me and the closest one, her parents are too fuckin strickt, thinking 5 min on the phone is a long ass time so I don’t get to talk to her much. I know no one in my area, there all druggies and crap…If I do know them from middle school there pervs…more than often talk about my boobs <.< I hear enough about my Orihime sized boobs at school as a joke I don’t need pervs here to actually be hitting on me <.< ……
-sighs-
I just want time to move faster…so I can move away from here I don’t care where or how I just want to be free from all this shit.

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

I HATE MY FUCKIN ASS MOTHER FUCKIN BROTHER <.< HE NEVER LEAVES ME THE FUCK ALONE SERIOSULY I NEVER FUCKIN TALK TO HIM BUT THE FUCKER JUST HAS TO COME AND RAISE MY FUCKIN BLOOD PRESSURE<.< IF I DON’T DIE FRM BEING KILLED IMA DIE FROM HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE<.< AHHHHHHHHH I WANT OUT OF THIS FUCKIN HELL HOLE!! <.<<<<<<<.<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
I HATE HIM I HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIM
I HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIM
I HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIMI HATE HIM
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IF I FUCKIN WANTED TO DIE ID JUMP OFF A FUCKIN BRIGDE <.< I DON’T NEED THIS BULL SHIT I HAVE ENOUGH STRESS AND FRUSTRATION AS IT IS
BURN IN FUCKIN HELL<.<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
I CATN STAND SEEING HIS BITCH ASS FACE, EVERY TIME I SEE HIM I GET FREAKEN ANGRY, THAT’S HOW MUCH I HATE HIM <.< HE BROUGHT THIS ONTO HIMSELF, REALLY IN 2 YEARS HE WONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT A FUCKIN SISTER IM OUT OF THIS HELL HOLE <.<

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

I think ‘ranting’ is becoming a habit now e-e aw well probably just a phase :/
My stomach is really starting to piss me off e-e I cant eat anything with out it feeling weird right after V.V I really want it to stop, like badly I hate the feeling. I survived yesterday, with my brother and his friend being over. Really I prefer my brothers friend to be my brother instead of my brother V.V he dosent annoy the crap outta me <.< -sighs- I asked for a brother when I was younger, not a jack ass >.<’
June’s almost over…Im glad that time is going by faster…just idk, grade 10 flew by on to grade 11 in a few months :/ -curls up into a small ball- ;.;
Summers gonna be boring as hell e-e
People in my neighborhood stare a lot <.< I went to the mall that’s like a 5 min walk from my house and I haven’t been there in forever and there soo many creepers that stare me down, men and women D:< and they make it obvious that there staring too e-e a couple of them fully turned their heads <.<
On the plus side I saw my friend from grade 1, Devon; hes been in my school since first grade and only in grade 8 we found out were cousins xD But seriously everyone I knew that I saw the other day…there expanding :/ everyone in the mall was either over weight or ubberly skinny :/ ~is glad shes in between~ e-e -sighs- Dads trying to suck up to me (un) when mom and I came back from grocery shopping mom told dad that I saw a pair of shoes I liked the next morning he told my mom and I to go out and get them if we wanted, which is out of character for him…he thinks im stupid….well…clueless e-e I see more things that he has I know more too…my parents are so closed minded e-e –bashes head- -sighs- ………..
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[||Kitty Yuudai||]

Ranting so early in the morning..heh e-e;
I didn’t sleep…at least I think I didn’t…well I know I slept from 10-12 then woke up and slept from 4-5 or so :/, all I know was I had some fucked up dream(s) for the past couple of nights Ive been having messed up dreams and there realllllllyyy starting to annoy me <.< when I wake up its either I feel like throwing up, my entire body goes pisty cold or shaky D:<<< WHAT THE HELL!! D:<<< >.<
-sighs-
Well..at least im home wed and thurs :/ I’ll probably sleep in if my mom dosent wake me up and tell me shes leaving, god I hate that just leave a fuckin note for crying out loud e-e Im too tiered to do any more ranting…might rant afterschool though e-e ~

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

Rant # 2 for the day woot!e-e


Un- official last day of school, this year was omg so fast e-e
-cuddles Gaara plushie- I really hope summer goes by quickly…I really really really do….Konan and I plan on going langurie(sp?) shopping over the summer….:/ it’ll be interesting, gonna drag tobi with us too and Yin.
English exam tomorrow, jst nneda look over the plot and some terms and im good. Other than that yeah :/
Today was ubberly boring though…Civics we watched some movie…didn’t really watch it, was asleep really…we watched Jurassic Park in English :/ finished my art assignment in like 2 min after second bell rang…so watched DBSK vids with Yin.
Art and Lunch were the two ‘fun’ periods. Yin made me perk up and lunch was a rape fest e-e Konan and I got ontop of tobi…e-e and yeah, people in the window stared we just laughed ^^
Nii-chan said his final good byes to us, were gonna miss him though he tormented us in grade nine, hes still our Nii-chan, cuz of him were the pervs we are today, making anything into something dirty :/ (not something to be proud of bu eh)
I feel like crying right now…e-e ½ of my high school years done already, yin and I are gonna start looking for collages next year :/ Dad wants me to get my G1 this summer…I might be an obedient child and learn my hand book e-e plus I want to be able to go places without them being such a nag I going to be 17 next year I mean come on <.< what are they gonna do when I move out after high school? <.<
Ive been having mixed emotions about everything these past few days, its like the more im on my own without ppl to talk to and be around the more I start rethinking things and coming up with weird scenarios and seriously I think that’s whats making me go into blah moods so often and for so long…I want the rollercoaster to stop like now…and I want to be able to eat without my stomach going all RAWR <.< :/ I really need to escape myself (sry) and god I hope ppl are on xat when im off school :/ apparently according to Konan Im going to get a job as a stripper next year when I apply for Fantasy Fair, of course with the dirty minds we have ‘Fantasy’ turned into something sexual :/ so ima be a stripper apparently e-e; Woot:/ (though I think id make a good stripper e-e eh I wont strip for no one but my future husband :/)
I think ive isolated myself too much before and now its hard to get out of, I hope next year will be better and with less or hopefully no drama or hurt or anything. Gotta stop going under E_E;

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

Not really a rant...more like worrie e-e;;

English exam V_V
Needa find what room im in when I get there…Writing and informal piece and an essay one of thems gonna be on Lord of the Flies and the other on Romeo and Juliet
Seriously idk why people like romeo and Juliet…everyone in my English calss hates it, including me. There is depth to it..bu still….it naw <.< :/
-cuddels Gaara plushie- 20 more min before school time woot e-e
At least tomorrow I have off…and Thursday ^^
Then Math on Friday (crs)
I’ll probably…more than likely get penalized for my spelling on English exam more than anything e-e
I’ll probably rant later when I get home V_V; Im content this morning, I just hope stays that way through out…tomorrows gonna rain…I realllllly hope I don’t go blah E_E which I think will happen regardless if I hope it not to happen or not <.<
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[||Kitty Yuudai||]

Rant 2 for the day~
Well…this isn’t a rant so to say more like a reflection^^ well maybe one part might be somewhat of a rant bu for the most part its all goooodd :3

The morning was a bit sluggish seeing that I couldn’t think and I think I failed or barely passed my English exam xD I started ranting about stuff and didn’t really know how to tie it with the thsis I knew what I wanted to write but I didn’t write it ;.; my brain was telling my hand to do something bu my hand didn’t listen Dx
Aww well :3
Before the exam I talked to Britny aka Bitty, whos having some drama between Tobi and Konan :/
I see both sides and I love them all T_T bu she wont go to them two and them two wont go to her Dx I really hope they resolve things soon cuz I love it when we all hang out T^T
Bitty and I hung out the rest of the time, exams finished at 9:45am and I couldent go home till 2:41 cuz my ride didn’t come till then xD So we had a lot of time to kill. Bitty went to get some help in schience first so Drew, DeiDei and I waited outside the door for her, we sat there looking like hoboes xD just talking about random stuff, drama and how its stupid and crap. We waitied for like an hour for her xD then we finally started walking to tim hortans (which is like the canadain version of dunkin donuts…bu Canadian and different o-o;) form school to there is like a 35 min walk, Drew and DeiDei walked ahead so Bitty and I walked together and omg ppl are idk omg D< soo many ppl honked at us and a lot of them rolled down their windows and whistled at us and stuff :/ even like middle aged men <.< which was ubberly creepy @_@ other than that the walk up was good and worth it I brought bitty and I ice capps :3 and we gots hyper (h) the walk back was good too xD less honks bu it hurt like hell my sandals were ubberly thin and it was a rocky path cuz our school is in the middle of no where :/ so it hurt to walk ;.; Bitty and I started talking about making a comic together about us and our friends, her and I are aries sisters and we call ourselves the devils daughters so the comics gonna be about that xD her and I are the devils daughters were working on the plot and stuff still :3
Overall today was a good day and im glad for it^^ Ive been waiting for a day to be like today so im contented not ubberly happy but very contented^_______________^

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

I haven’t ranted in like 2 days or something? Eh breaking the no ranting streak x3


I think my ‘thinking’s payed off o-o; I understand things now and stuff and im oddly happy for the morning o-o; AWW WEELLL x3
(hehe)
I HAVE MY LAST EXAM TODAY WOOT!!!!
Dosent start till 12:30pm and I have to stay in school all day :/ I’ll be at school from like 7:35am till 2:41pm xD
Eh Idont mind it I’ll have tobi to keep me company :3
AND YIN CAME ON THIS SITEEE!!!! :3 I think shell be on more I really hope so^^
Everyone needs to get on more I the mornings though Dx I is ubberly bord then ;.;
Bu yeah…I feel a lot better now still really numb bu happiness gone up :/
X3
WELL EXAM TIME…NOT REALLY BU IN A COUPLE OF HOURS D<
-POOFS-

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

Ranting time~


Summer breaks barely stated…and im already ubberly bord V.V I cant stay up late on the computer to talk to you guys and when I am on ppl aren’t T^T That’s depressing @_@
I think im loosing a friendship not sure where this stands bu I think its faiding o-o;
Eh only time will tell if it’ll heal ^^
OMG my mom is AHHHH D:<<<<<
Seriously she wakes me up at 6 in the morning to tell me what I fuckin have to do today just write it out gawd danmit <.< then I was ½ way back asleep when she yelled that her and dad are leaveing V.V Seriously, she didn’t do that last week why the fuck did she do that today <.< ;;;; V______________________V
-sighs-
-Cuddles Gaara Plushie- ;.;

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

RANTING TIMMMMMEEE x3

Can a rant really be a rant if it’s a happy rant? ….is there such thing as a happy rant anyways?!!! D:
Mmmhhh……Well if there isn’t…THERE IS NOWWWW x3
MWHAHAHHAHAHAH
Maybe I should rename this thing to Kittys Random hour O-o' Eh naw...I'll need this to rant sometime again later on xD
YINS ON NOW!!! ^________________^
HEHEHEEHEH NOW THERES A YIN AND YANG ON THE SITE WOOT
NOW ALL I NEEDA DO IS GET HER TO RP!! D:<
I must teach her the way of the role player...though...she'd probably be better of learning form someone else bu eh ^^;
:3
I found out that my friedn Kat is leaving our school DXXXX
I dont want her too TT_TT she was the first person i spoke to in grade 9, she was my locker buddie Dxx
T^T
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okay im done with the sad faces now o.o;
Im sooo happy its sunny x3 thought tomorrows gonna rain...;.; <---depressing
bu then the weekends suppose to be kick ass so im good :3
I needa get Tobi, Konan, Yin and Sai to come over some time >.<; Were suppose to save each other from our familes and being ubberly bord to the point where we ear our own hands ;.;'
I just hope tobi dosent have to work when we do plan to...oooorrr...we could work around it...yeahhh.....heh
=P
I needa get my computer ffiiiixxxeeddd and i reealllly want a tablet ;.;'
I want to post my art on Deviant art, I havent submited anything in so long, and the stuff i have on atm are just like my train and errors, working with PS, trying to learn how to colour 'perfect;y' and such ;.;'
Hehe

:3

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

YEAH RANTING!!!!

This morning my fuker of a brother came in my room adn started flicking hte lights on and off to piss me off...i chucked a water bottle at his head <_< so thats that...
I went over to Yins yesterday^^ it was fun :3
We talked most of the time and listened to DBSK x3 (hehe)
Her parents wanted her to do somehting on PS for them so i helped in whatever way i could xD

and we got our report cards back x3 i scored a 79.6% average e-e I was hiping for an 80 or so ...math brought me down V_V; I kinda sortta bomed my math exam..cuz irealllly didnt give a fuck XD i got a 60% on it or so, didnt fail bu eh :/ Everyting else i passed x3
my marks were all in the high 70's- 80's :3 Art i got like a 87% xxx33333
-dances-
and i has another fanboy at school e-e joy..
i was saying good bye to everyone cuz Yins dad was here and was waiting for us so i went to hug him good bye too cuz hes one of my freinds and all and he wouldnt let go :/ V_V;
IMA MISS OUR AUSTRALIAN FRIEND DXXXX SHES OING BACK TO AUSTRALIA...SHE WAS AWSOME T_____T shes our friend from down under ;.; she has my number and stuff so yeah!^^
and Michael aka Itachi is going to Texas Dx hes having a going away party today apperently everyone is asking if im comming bu i cant either way :/ dad will know there guys there and say no in a heart beat V_V he dosent get htat i can have guy friends to <____< gawd i hate my dad...V_V;
Ima miss Michael :/ he was a bit emo bu he was like a brother to me T_T
He was itachi and i was his sexy no jutsu Dx
We came up with if someone touches me, there really touching him too, if someone slapps him, there really slapping me too, its weird bu in our heads it makes sence =P
-sighs-
A lot of people are leaving this year....T_T
bu hopefully they'll say in touch ^^

AND ZOMG
THE THEME SONG FOR .HACK SIGN!!!!
OBESESSION
ITS SANG IN ENGLISH DXXX BU IT SOUNDS JAP DX ;.;

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iz1U5nJbvm0

I looked up the lyrics and their english ;.;''
Sai told us about it sometime before school closed and Yona dn i were like: THE FUCK!!!!
;.;

its in english ;.;'
<---mindfucked

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

I srsly cant wait for school<.< that way I wont be any where near that son of a bitch <.< I HATE THIS FUCKIN FAMILY SOOO FUCKIN MUCH <.< EVERY TIME THEY SAY SOMETHING LIKE : OH EVERYONES DIFFERENT EVERYONE REACTS TO THINGS DIFFERENTLY AW THAT’S A LOAD OF BULL SHIT <.< WHEN EVER I GET PISSED AT SOMETHING ITS LIKE THE END OF THE FUCKIN WORLD CUZ IM NOT SUPPOSE TO GET FUCKIN MAD AT SHIT ITS FUCKIN ME IF I GET MAD AT SOEMTHING THAT THAT’S ME SO BE HONESTLY DONET FUCKIN SAY SOMETHING WHEN UR GONNA COONTRIDICT WHAT U SAY AHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGG <.< LIFE BE OVER ALREADY <.< EVERY FUCKIN TIME MY BROTHER DOES SOMETHING TO ANNOY ME WHAT DO THEY FUCKIN DO THEY LAUGH AT IT, CUZ MY BROTHERS THE ‘FUNNY’ ONE AND ONLY TELLS HIM TO STOP ONCE AND DOES SHIT, THEY COMPLAIN THAT IM GONNA DIE FROM HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE WELLL FUCKIN GOSH I WONDER WHY THE FUCK THAT IS <.< IVE CRIED MY SELF TO SLEEP ONE TOO MANY FUCKIN TIMES <______< THEY WONDER WHY IM UNHAPPY SRSLY I WONT BE SURPRISED IF IM SUFFERING FROM FUCKIN DEPRESSION RIGHT NOW I CANT TAKE LIVING IN THIS FUCKIN HELL HOLE <.< MY HEAD FEELS LIKE ITS GONNA EXPLODE RIGHT NOW <_______________________________________________________<

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

This has been a rotten ass week v.v its been raining all week; aint suppose to stop till this wednsday and to top that what does every girl look forward to each month -sarcastic- yup thats right pms c.c gawd ive had major moodswings and i cant control it i want to bu i CANT v.v ive been looking at things differently this week and idont want to look at them like that no more; ive cried a bit v.v i realllllly want to be done; july has been more or less a rotten month ;.; I havent talked to tobi and konan in a while and i have almost no money on my phone so i cant txt them nont till i get some more money on it which should be soon. instead of cramps i has head aces e.e -sighs- please let this week be better T^T

[||Kitty Yuudai||]

YEAH RANTING TIME D:<<<
Srsly..my rents needa go to some fuckin marriage consoler or just divorce <.< im sick and tiered of their shit; expecually when im pmsing like NOW <.< I get pissed at everything and everyone practically, I just plainly don’t wake up on the right side of the bed <.< My god I cant wait to leave this fuckin hole <.< I hate pmsing <.< I start telling myself things that arnt true and end up somewhat believing myself…I fucked up my own head <.< -sighs-……..
I hate life…v.v…..
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